Dear Boy,
I made the mistake of reading our old messages. It hurt seeing the progress of us falling for one another, being in love, and it becoming so toxic. I’m still not over it, even though it’s been a year. I read how you loved me, and that no one could replace me. I wish those words were true, but I know you’re happier without me. Even though all I feel is empty. It’s hard for me to catch feelings, but I fell hard for you. You made my life complete and since you left me I am no longer who I used to be. Im bad at showing my feelings but I had and still have all these feelings and love for you even though you destroyed me and left me emotionally torn apart. I still would have done anything for you. You left me though, and to this day I don’t get why. You never explained yourself or gave me closure. Even though it wouldn’t have made a difference, I wish I told you how much I really did love you, because I’d like to think maybe it would have made you hold on just a bit tighter and longer. I gave you all the love I could have given you and it still wasn’t enough and I just wish I knew how to be the one for you because I only want you. It really hurts because all you use me for is sex, and someone to run to when you have no one else and you’re bored. Regardless, I still would do anything for you and I miss everything about you. I love you so much. I wish I could tell you all of this and I wish we could be together. I miss you so much I need you.