Dear Scum
My whole 4 1/2 yr relationship with you was the worst time of my life.. I bailed you out of jail with my last bit of money, I had some random guy help me carry you to my car when you overdosed infront of me, I drove you to and from work and probation whenever you’d ask. I did so freaking much for you.. I defended you when people told me you were shitty, I moved out for you, I let you sleep in my car, I quit my job for you, I had a child for you. FUCK IM HURT. I’m so hurt. I just want to cry and scream when I think about you. I want to rip my hair out. I miss our good times and laughs because I don’t do that with anybody else, not even my husband but it was genuine with you. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A SHITTY PERSON WHO USES PEOPLE?! Just why?! Oh my god. Well guess what.. your back going in and out of jail and now who the hell knows what’s going on with you now. WHY AM I ATTRACTED TO SHITTY HUMAN BEINGS?! Why do I still think about you? Do you still think about me? – Wait it doesn’t even fucking matter. You picked up some woman and are raising her kids yet here I am with yours and you’re nowhere in sight. Why would I expect anything less from a drug addict though? You are the absolute worst thing that has ever happened to me. The only positive thing you’ve done is given me my son, he’s perfect in every way. I’m raising him a whole lot of things, Yup- the most important thing is to not grow up like his “sperm donor”. Yup, he’s learning real well! He treats me with respect and knows how to behave well. How does it feel to have a child in this world and not know what his favorite color is or favorite animal? You don’t even know what his favorite meals are! Haha. If only you went to rehab James, if only..