When I met you everyone was telling me I was too good for you. But I took you in anyways. I was hoping you wouldn’t allow drugs to ruin your family. I took you in I let you live with me. I bought you new clothes, gave you the best food to eat and even free rides to work. I was standing by your side even when everyone else was giving up on you. Even when the father of your children decided to go to rehab you abandoned him on the streets and left your children homeless, you never loved those kids and you don’t deserve to be a mother. You should be rotting in prison for child neglect and abandonment. You told me you had been clean for a year and that was a total lie. Remember on your birthday when you went to see your oldest son, I was the one man you wanted to get a call from. Remember you wanted me to call you more than any other man. How can you abuse someone you care about so much. You couldn’t even be honest with others that we were cuddling and sleeping together. You just wanted to keep me a secret. You couldn’t even share a photo of us together on your facebook but you shared a photo of another guy you never even met the first day you met him. Even though the only thing he wanted was to get you drunk and get your pants off, that’s why you flaked on him so much because you knew he only wanted one thing from you. You kept coming back to me because you know I was real. I wasn’t just some guy wanting to get in your pants.

I loved you and cared about you deeply. Then you woke me up one night wanting me to have sex with you. I thought it was your own weird way of telling me you wanted me but not even a night of passionate sex was enough to get you to change your mind. You told me “this doesn’t change anything” as if sex doesn’t change anything in a relationship. Then your behavior changed after that, you started using sex to manipulate.

How can you abuse and threaten to kill someone you’re suppose to care about so much. You made a fake phone call to CPS trying to make it look like you were going to get your kids back, even that was a lie. CPS said they never got a call from you.

I stood by your side, we made love together, I took you places you rarely got to see. You gave me a reason to keep working 6 days a week bringing home the bucks so we can have a life together but you couldn’t even get into work on time. You were the office clown at work, even our supervisor thought you were a joke. You even had other women at the office recommending me to you, one of our female co-workers even told you straight up, you should lock him down because he’s a wonderful man.

Remember when you loved seeing me in that new $500 suit, that other girl at work said “you look like a spy” so many women were recommending that you should have said yes but it was too late.

Suddenly everything changed after you were kicked out of my apartment you suddenly didn’t like it. You knew the secret was out. You kept blocking and unblocking me on your phone, you kept calling me in the middle of the night but you couldn’t get yourself to talk to me. You knew I figured out what was going on and you were too ashamed to admit it to me. Even after you did finally admit it to me you were still lying to me.

All I remember now is seeing you punching me in the face and threatening kill me in your drug fueled rage and abandoning your kids. You could move to another state but you couldn’t go to rehab and save your family. You allowed your addiction to ruin everything.