Day after day I catch myself thinking of you. Its been almost a year .. I’ve moved states and cut all ties I had with you. Yet, you still find me. I dream of you every night waking up in tears gasping for air. Still feeling your hands around my throat.. I guess you could say I still love you, but not for the monster you’ve become. Drug and alcohol have taken its toll on you. You’re eyes dont shine and your smiles faded. Your hands are now stained from my blood . Theres things you cant take back, but I know you wish you could. I wish I would have pushed you harder to get clean. After everything we went through I shouldn’t have given up. At the same time though.. Broken bones and hidden bruises were to much. I’m sorry that in your eyes I wasnt good enough.. I forgive you though.. you’ve taught me so much. You taught me the signs to watch for when it comes to an abusive manipulative lying cheating asshole . You also taught me that I cant save everyone and sometimes it’s okay to let go. So thank you. I just wish you the best on this long journey you have ahead of you. I do ask one thing of you.. if you meet someone and they fall in love with you like I did, dont take it for granted again.