Dear Justin,

It’s so hard to come to terms with the fact that our romantic relationship  is over, although I am happy that we can still remain friends, because you truly are my best friend. I’m so mad at the universe for bringing us together to only tear us apart, but everything happens for a reason and eventually we will see that reason.

It’s torture seeing you smile and thinking back to all the times we have sat and laughed together and how we would give each other huge hugs afterwards and a kiss. It’s going to be so hard to not want to do that anymore but it’s what is for the best. You have hurt me one too many times and I keep letting you do it, and I know that deep down you don’t want to hurt me but for some reason it keeps happening. Maybe it’s just bad timing, maybe we met too young and we will reconnect in the future, but I can’t hold onto that hope, it’s so unhealthy.

There are so many positive things to our relationship that I am too blinded to see all the negative, and how I give you all of me for you to barely give me part of you. I know that you aren’t perfect and I never wanted you to be, I’ve always loved you just the way you are and have always wanted to help you do better, and maybe that’s where I fucked up.. I tried to fix you and that fucking broke me. I tried to make you love me as much as I love you and the truth is, is that you don’t.

I will always be your friend and unfortunately that’s all we will ever be able to be, or we will both never truly be happy. I deserve someone to love me the way I loved you, and you deserve to know how it feels to love someone so much. Thank you for everything, the good, the bad, the happy, the angry, the sad all of it taught me so much the past two years. Thank you for being my best friend and for showing me what I truly deserve.

Kierstin