Dear Pao,

I know you wouldn’t get the chance to read this letter, but I wanna get this off my chest. We’ve been talking for almost 5 months and I think what we had was special. I could still remember the day when I was about to delete that dating app and then you messaged..asking if we could continue talking on another platform. Although I don’t wanna talk to anyone that time, I let you message me. I thought you’re just like other guys who will ghost me after sometime, but no, you were different. I didn’t realize that I was so attached to you. We would spend days talking to each other sharing stories about ourselves. Not a single day you did not made me smile. 

Everything just seem so perfect between us. But then, nothing is permanent. School came and we became both busy. I tried to understand how busy you were but I can’t help it not to miss you. It caused problems and arguments, we tried to work things out but it seems like nothing’s happening. I’m going to be honest with you, it really do hurt when you became very distant. I just played it cool like I did not notice your changes, but I did notice everything. I asked for our label but you told me you want us to see each other first before putting label to our relationship. How could we do that if were in amidst of pandemic? I know that our love language just doesn’t match, but you know how much I tried, and I know that you did, too. 

I don’t know what happened but you ended things with us that morning. I was so devastated and I do not know what to tell you. Pao, I do not even want you to let go. You stayed just enough to make me think that you would never leave. I did not even expected this to happen. I still want you to come back. I was looking forward for our future together, but if your decision is what will make you happy, then I’ll be happy for you, too. 

Maybe we’ll meet again when the timing is right. I am going to miss you, Pao. You never know how much you made me happy and special in a span of five months, and it still pains me to wake up without a good morning from you. 

Sincerely,
Aaaaaa