E, There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by when I haven’t thought of you. No part of me wants to get back together with you but I still love you and miss you. It’s so hard balancing feelings of anger and pain with love and longing. You hurt me more than anyone ever has. And you did it on purpose. You did it knowingly. I have scars so deep that it will probably take years to heal because of you. I know you didn’t want to hurt me but you did. You were dishonest and in a way, I’m glad you were because it was the universes way of showing me that you were not the man for me. I have forgiven you but it will take me a long time to heal from the damage you did. At first I hated myself for staying with you as long as I did. But I don’t regret it anymore. I’m grateful for our time together and for our memories. I’m also grateful you’re no longer my partner. 

I hope you recognize the work you have to do and do it. Otherwise you’re just letting yourself down. You don’t need to worry about letting me down anymore, just focus on yourself. That’s enough for you to handle as it is. I wish I could be 100% kind or 100% angry but I’m still working through my feelings. It’s hard loving someone who hurt you as deeply as you did. 

I miss you and love you. You weren’t right for me. But I still miss you.