Hello mushroom. Do you still remember our 16January2018? 

I know I shouldn’t be writing this but I can’t help it anymore. It’s been a year since I saw you, yet I still can’t forget you’re face. I cant. I dunno why. I really hate the way things ended between us. I need you, mushroom. They say moving on is the best choice you could make for yourself after a breakup. But no. Moving on is difficult and I completely get it. I never stopped loving you, not once. I tried very hard to make you think I did, but I never stopped loving you. I only stopped loving myself. I just want to find my way back to you. You are all I want, you are the one I want to grow with. I promise you, I will never let another soul treat me the way you did. You will forever hold a place in my heart. Losing you will always be one of the worst things I’ve ever had to go thru. I cant focus with my life anymore. Everything about you keep running thru my head. “These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real.
There’s just too much that time cannot erase”
Take care wherever you are, i will always miss you my forever mushroom. I’m just hoping that you never read this. You don’t need to know this. (Still kinda hoping you do) 

I think I lost my mind,
I think I lost my shit,
Only thing that I believe,
The only thing that I believe,
I believe I let you go.
Pretty sure you’re no longer inside my veins,
Turns out I still can feel the jealousy.
Why would I be,
Strained by the rain of those memories of you?
Why would I be,
Trapped in a place without no name?
I’m sinking my own thoughts,
Draining my own world,
Still carrying the melodies of you.

-Why Would I Be-