To the love I almost had

To the love I almost had

To the love I almost had

I feel like a piece of my soul left with you. It is hard because there are no memories to look upon badly, we lifted each other up and made each other so happy. But you are young and need to grow up and learn who you are and what you want before you can be with me. I have hope that we will be together one day but I am worried that having that hope will only lead me to feel more pain when it may not become true.

I have never been truly myself or so vulnerable with someone before so thank you for teaching me how. Thank you for accepting me and all the weird things I do and say that others have not liked about me in the past. You are so incredible. I cannot accept that you were brought into my life just for this to be the end. I wonder if you are thinking of me the way I am thinking of you every second of the day.

I know I can move on. But I don’t want to move on. I want to love you. I want to hug you. I want to kiss you. I want to laugh with you. I hope that I have the chance to love you one day the way you deserve to be loved. A part of me thinks I should have been more careful with my heart and not have let you in so quickly. But I am also proud of myself for sharing a piece of myself with you. You made me feel so special, beautiful, seen. God, you were the first person to ever truly see me. I pray you find clarity in your life and are able to open you heart one day. Even if it isn’t with me. I just want you to be happy. I think I was falling in love with you. To the love I almost had, I miss you so dearly.


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