With all the time that has passed, I find myself wanting to apologise for the last time we were in touch. Bat crap crazy comes to mind but in reality we both know that wasn’t the case. It was the dam walls that finally broke. 
I realised today that even after everything and over half our lifetime, you still come to mind. So I ended up reading letters on here. Many talk about hate or how they wish they never met. I wonder if you do hate me or if I left a sour taste in your mouth. I certainly said things I shouldn’t have while I was hurt, like wanting to earse you. Clearly that was a bluff coz your still floating around in my head. I asked if everything was about getting even for you? Again another thing I should never have asked… You once said you wanted simple and maybe simple was never going to be an option after everything that happened. We both held things of importance back, more so myself. I do find myself wondering if you truly understand what I was saying or how much I wanted to protect you from that. I don’t know if I ever made the right choice. Should I have told you than or even later on like what happened? Should I have just kept my mouth shut?  I do have regrets about you, about things I should have done or said and maybe that is all this is, regrets wanting to be heard, after all we have changed. We are different people from who we were all those years ago. Anyways babe this letter which was never going to happen certain has been a long one lol 
Take care babe xoxo