Hey B,
I had so many things left unsaid after all this time. It would be so weird for me to just blab about this in a pretend drunk text so I guess this is as close as I’ll ever get to telling you.

I check your sisters Facebook page every now and then just to see your face again. I guess its some form of torture I put myself through but I can’t help it. I constantly wonder how you’re doing. They say some people get lucky enough to get another shot with someone they love. I was never one of the lucky ones. 

I wish I had been brave enough to stay and see where things would go with you but i was in so much pain dealing with my insecurities and obligations. I wonder if I ever cross your mind at all. My only comfort is that i never lost face by confessing how I feel but perhaps if i had, the gamble could have even gone in my favor. Guess we’ll never know now…

You are a true catch and i envy the lucky one who shall be the object of your affection. As for me, I will do my best to take it day by day and distract myself from the despair of not having you in my life. Im sorry if I had to fabricate that big lie of why i had to leave work after four months. Somehow i didn’t think that telling them it was because of you would go so well 

There’s definitely days that I wish i never met you, i was so obliviously content with my life before you came along.  But the damage is done, all I can do is wish you the best.