It’s been 5 years since you told me you chose someone new. A new flame. I still have nightmares every night about you even with the new medication the psychiatrist gave me. I can’t move on or try anything new because no one is as interesting as you used to be. Somehow you’ve given me ptsd, every time I hear our song in public, see someone similar to you, see something that reminds me of you. I can’t even touch an adidas jacket without the texture sending me back. I just wish you would understand the pain you have caused me. Or acknowledge it. I know i won’t be able to move on before you do. I’ll never be able to go back to Disneyland because it’s so close to where you live. I wake up in a sweat at night dreaming about you terrified to the point where I can’t shake out of it. How can you block someone and not care about someone you dated and where engaged to for 5 years? How can you be so cruel?