Dear Nico, 

It’s been 3 days since we decided to end our 4-year relationship. Our last conversation was the first time in a very long time i confessed that i am still in love with you. I knew you don’t feel the same way anymore that’s why i kept my feelings all these years. I pretended i don’t have feelings for you anymore so i can still be with you. I was not ready to loose you. I had tiny hopes in me that things will change and we’ll go back to that time when we’re still in love. But of course it didn’t happen. 

I can’t stay like your booty call anymore. It hurts me like hell. It’s only been 3 days since we cut off our communication but it feels like forever and it is killing me. I pray to God for a complete healing coz i am shattered into pieces. I have invested so much in this relationship. Now i have to pick myself up and move on. Paint a picture of my future without you. If I will ever have a chance to meet you again one day, i hope I will be more improved, happy and whole again. Right now, i am struggling but i promise i will slowly rebuild myself. 

I really miss you but i have to let you go. I wish you well one last time.

Jo