So turns out I’m still mad. 
I’m still hurting. 
I’m still confused.
I tried my hardest to hold me head high. To be strong and move on gracefully. But in the process of me trying to learn to love again, I have discovered a new layer of pain and hurt that I find myself silently going through. 
I have cut contact with you officially. It’s done. But I wish I made you realize how selfish you are. How much you truly hurt me. How much I’m truly struggling. So here it goes: 
I am a full time nursing student. I have two part time jobs. And I take care of OUR dog full time now. It has been extremely busy. Extremely difficult. I have very little money. This dog. The house to have him in. It’s all so expensive with me only being able to work part time. Not only that but my job in the ER is physically and emotionally so demanding. You on the other hand have your one job. Nothing else. And you can’t even help me with the dog because your new girlfriend said “you’re not allowed.” That dog was partially your responsibility. For crying out loud. I hope she is worth it. I hope this all makes you happier and you can sleep well at night knowing that you hurt and screwed over another human being. I will be okay eventually. But learning to love again has been hard. You have convinced me that I am too broken to be in a healthy relationship. A friend recently told me that that is not true. That you merely used that as an excuse. I know that’s true. But reteaching myself to believe that has been hard. So thank you. For the pain. For the grief. I know one day soon I will be over it. But I wish you knew just how hard that journey has been.