Dear S,
I still miss you. i still think about you and wonder what you’re up to. i hope you’re doing good love. i think we will always be connected by what we went through together. i think i loved you more than you loved me. that makes me sad still. some part of me still hopes that someday we can reunite.

I wish it could’ve worked. i feel like my life ended when you left. it’s been 3 years since we broke up already but i still have love for you. i always will. my man. my honey bee. it’ll always be you. even if i move on, even if i get married, i know i’ll always wish it could’ve been you. no one will ever compare to the friendship we had. you were my best friend. you knew me better than anyone, and still do.

I’m still struggling. i have some friends and my sister but no one compares. no one comes close. i hate it. i see you in everything around here. it feels like a part of me died when you left.

Why did you leave? why did you stop loving me? did you ever? i know you did. just not enough. god it still stings. if only i had been older, i wouldn’t have gotten so caught up in my family’s expectations. i would’ve chose you. chose us. maybe it was never meant to be. we had so many problems. but i still have that sliver of hope.

I pray for you still. more than i do for myself. maybe that’s my problem. i don’t care for myself. but with you i felt alive. on fire. i hope i can heal from this. but i never want to forget how much i loved you. please never change dear. My Skye.  With love, B