I’d never thought i would write you a letter six years later. I don’t know why but you’re on my mind daily since a few months, and I truly don’t understand. You made me feel like shit, laughed at my face when I had an abortion by myself while you were cheating. You cheated so many times i lost the count real quick, but despite all of those things i can’t stop thinking about you.

Don’t get this wrong, it’s not that i still love you. It’s been five years since him and i are the happiest. He’s my home, my soulmate, he’s everything you’ll never be. And fuck, i hate you for being in my mind. I hate you cause i keep thinking about you without any anger and i never felt that those last few years. I sometimes find myself missing you and i hate you for that, but i don’t. I miss you actually. In a weird way but i miss you.