Hey B,
Hope you’re doing well.
I was a fool to ask you to reconsider. I should have let you go the first time you doubted us. Things were going so well before the months apart that I wanted to hold on to to the dream we had. I wanted to hold onto the girl that I fell in love with, but you were right, that girl was no longer you. 

It’s ironic how you felt taken for granted by your friends, but you were unconsciously doing so with me for months on end. Some of the loneliest times that I ever felt in my life was when I’m with you. When I had to plan and celebrate my own birthday next to you, I was just too stupid to see the real you that I am in love with. I don’t blame you for what you did, it was my fault for holding on to a fading ember and not telling you earlier about how exhausted I am.

Ever since you felt out of love, I think you only loved my company and it could have been anyone but it just happened to be me. Love isn’t just a feeling B, it’s shown through actions and work. The little things stopped. You got comfortable and stopped making me feel special. The second half of our relationship was just a white lie, one that I denied until it’s finally over.

And so I thank you for your courage to break up with me. I was trapped in a world of eternal pain that I struggled to put it to words. You’d get annoyed at me for the smallest things, starting fights when we disagreed on trivial matters. You’d get upset when I shared you my feelings. 

Funny enough, the day of the breakup is the day that I see that loving girl in you again. I thank you for letting me down easy, and I appreciate the good times that we had.

I wish life treat you well, that your loving family reunite and that you achieve your purpose in life.
I know that you wanted to be friends, but I think it’s best that our paths never cross again and that I remain dead to you.