Still in disbelief

Still in disbelief

Still in disbelief

To this day. I still can’t comprehend how you never asked me how I was ? You knew how fragile I was regarding a certain situation that we both did, but you let me go through it all by myself. You didn’t even ask if I was okay?

For the last 17 years… I always thought I knew who you were… The girls, drugs, and sex I looked back because I knew you had a good soul… But I guess when you play a character for so long you slowly start to become it.   

I was REAL! I was! I never loved anyone as much as I loved you at one point.  EVER! It was real for me. You never trusted me because you know how real it was, and you were scared I was going to do to you what your mom did to your dad, but I never was a girl that went out and had sex for attention like your fiancé. You knew she was called the mascot, and you told me she stunk. Yet you went for a women who will do it to you in the future.  She will fall in love with a co-worker, and she will hurt you. That will be the karma I guess for all the bad you did to me over the years.  

You always kept me holding on.  I use to write back to randoms talking to me on my Facebook because I thought maybe it was you with an alias name. Oh how naive I was.  Anyways… I wish nothing, but the best for you and your future with your fiancé, and boys.  I’ve been having a bit of a rough time not being able to talk to anyone because I cut all toxic off, and I just needed to vent.  I’m doing so well, but feeling so alone.  I guess that’s just how it is.  

Bye bubba


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