Dear J.
I’m writing on this website because I just spent an hour writing a message to you that was really mature and well, nice. That truly shows My feelings about our time together. 

But I’m afraid to send it to you. This letter is not a letter to get you back but to say I’m sorry and Thank you but the reason that I’m scared to send it to you is because I’m afraid that it’s selfish of me. I don’t want to bring Up anything bad for you and since we don’t talk I don’t know what you think of me now. 

Do I make you sad? Mad? Or maybe happy? 

What will my letter do for you? Give you the closure I never could? Or will it open Up an old wound? 

This is why I’m scared. The reason it ended was because of me and now I feel like I just want to give closure to myself because I feel bad about what I did. But would my apology do anything for you? It’s been six months since I ended it and it was enough time for me to think through everything but has there been enough time for you? To think things through?