Dear Jenny,

It has been almost been over half a year since we broke up. I haven’t gone a day without thinking about you. Of course it got easier with time. At first it felt like hell, I couldn’t think about us without crying about it. Now I think about you less. Sometimes I think of you with hate, sometimes I think of you with kindness.

I wished you never heard you say those words. Those words let me moved on I guess. At the same time I feel hurt thinking about it every time. You said “I am not attracted to you anymore, I am in love with (person) and I rather go out with (another person), then to go out with you again”. How does one recover from something like that. I really want to let go of that hate you left me. Sometimes I tell myself I am the one who pushed you into saying that and maybe you don’t actually mean it. But I come to believe, you meant what you said. Well that threw me into severe depression. Luckily I recovered with a little help from someone. Thanks to her I feel like I am human again.

If there is one good thing I remember, it is the day we met. I still think it is somewhat magical. I was our friend’s birthday. You said you weren’t going to come, but you did anyway. I was suppose to have work, but I  called a day off. Then I got drunk and I made my moves on you. Even though we didn’t go very far that night. I felt that instant connection with you. The only word I can describe it with is “magic”. Then we walked all the way back to my dorm and we tried “sleep”. In the end we were awake and didn’t say a thing to each other until the next morning.

I doubt you will actually read this. Well I hope life goes well for you.