June 15th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in What I wish I'd told you § Posted by Better off
When we met all those years ago I wanted you so much, I wanted the man that demonstrated so much integrity, so much charm, so much empathy. I was stable, clear, confident and happy and your presence was almost as if my wish for my idea of my soul mate was realised.
I remember all the lies, the bitterness, the damnation and the cruel way in which you beat any happiness any joy out of my life and I remember that I still wanted you.
June 15th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in Still heartbroken, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by Pep
Dear Paul,
Slashing right through me while you work out your goodbyes. The pain, it’s worst than the first time. At least I knew he was bad for me, you took me by surprise.
The sudden realization that my circumstances have made me unlovable.
It’s like my chest is being sawed open. My heart ripped from my body. Am I not enough?
June 15th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in Just want to say sorry, Still heartbroken, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by WW
You hurt me. You gave me thoughts that we would get married, move to your home country… you introduced me to your friends, I talked to your father on the phone. You gave me entrance like I meant something. But you didn’t give me what I needed – consistency and commitment. Then I found the text. You stopped responding to texts and calls.
June 15th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in Still heartbroken § Posted by SKoonLapper
May da Gud Lord nt stRyk Me dead fOr Wot am Bwt To say as He Let Me Mde a Promise in da Frst Plce dt ‘If I cnt Have hm;i dont wanT aNybOdy eLse’. I Love U Mandla.
Lyk i sed Before U da One Ma HeaRt DeSire ;If NLy i Knew woT ws CuMin Ma waY I WdNt hVe asKd U Bwt Dt.U aLws Been Thr For me ;whn I Needd U Most,U SuPpoRtd Me N am WoH i aM bcOz u Wer Thr,Mde me strOng.
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June 15th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in What I wish I'd told you § Posted by Ryan
shani,
i love you
i am not allowed to say it anymore
but i love you, and that’s all that really matters..
i know what you have done, you have sent me out into the world and told me ‘do something, learn something’ and you have locked the door behind me.
June 15th, 2013 § 1 comment § Posted in Just want to say sorry, Still heartbroken, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by -s
A,
It’s been 2 years. 11 months and 29 days since that dreadful day when you told me we should take a break. I’m sure you don’t remember the date and the time but I do.
We dated for 9 months and sometimes for me it felt like all my life. In retrospect I guess you could say it was practically all my life since I’ve loved you. I loved you from the first time I met you when I was in grade 5 and you were climbing on the monkey bars and I was just sitting there on the steps. I know it’s odd to say love when in reality I was only 10 but from that day on I never went a day without thinking of you. Ten years later, I’m still sitting here. Wanting to go find you and tell you about how many things are going on in my life, because you were the only one that actually made me laugh and smile when I thought I couldn’t anymore.
June 11th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in What I wish I'd told you § Posted by Sofie S
You know, I’m actually glad you’re finally doing something, even though your motivation for it reeks of showing ‘the world’ (read: me) that I was the reason why you didn’t before. You were the reason why you didn’t. And you are the reason why you do now. But if you think, for one second, that maybe another girl is creating this space for you or is going to or has to, you’ll lose all your pretty efforts like snow for the sun when she makes you feel bad, one inevitable day.
I have always been supportive of you, and you know this, so a stalkerish ‘like’ on facebook from your stalkerish ‘couldn’t compute’ rebound ex, or the many others that followed or are following, really, come on. If that is really satisfactory, then by all means, get successful, I sure as hell have my doubts of the duration of the high of it though.
June 11th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in I wish you well § Posted by Fading
To whom my heart belongs, my first true love. I have so many words bouncing around in my head and often try and think of how I could scramble them together to make a sentence, paragraph or letter to make sense of it all. Not even sure as to what I’m trying to accomplish. I’ve seen too many occurrences of spiteful and bitter people after their intimate relationship have run their course and eventually their love diminished. In all these circumstances it’s the one left behind that feels spiteful and bitter towards love or their ex partners, all the while the one that leaves feels regret that they were ever involved with the person they loved and left.
June 10th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in Still heartbroken, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by jaykayelloell
Dear Dmitri,
You’ll never read this or know what I’m thinking because since you broke up with me I’ve put on a mask.
You said you were unhappy in our relationship because of long distance, us living in different towns and stopped visiting my house and always expected me to come to yours. I could only afford to come and see you once a month after and I fulfilled my end of the bargain even though money was so tight. I thought it was worth the effort coming all the way to see you. You clearly didn’t feel the same. There were reasons why I didn’t come and stay longer- my driving test, your interviews for higher education, and YOUR NEED FOR ONE WEEKEND TO DO YOUR OWN THING LIKE WORK ON YOUR PROJECTS. I respected our schedules and goals and worked around them.
June 10th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in Still heartbroken § Posted by AB
M,
I wish I didn’t still think of you. I wish every date I didn’t go on, even good ones, didn’t end with me just wanting to get the hell of of there–it isn’t you, it isn’t us, the connection, the ease of us…I will never find it again.
I wish I didnt miss you pushing me against that wall, with my hands above my head, your hand around my two wrists as you kissed me. We had the best kisses. I could kiss you for hours.
I wish I could forget you.
AB
June 10th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in I wish you well § Posted by arts girl
You were the boy I met at a campus pub and you changed everything. You were the med student with brown eyes who approached me and made me laugh with your cheesy pickup line. You were ambitious and good at heart I’m sure. We danced around for awhile but something happened, and then we lost each other. I met your right but I kept you wrong and there are days I wish I would go back but that is all subjective what if’s. What remains is this, a life not defined by you anymore. I wish you well, I really do. I hope you’re happy as I am slowly becoming to be myself.
Thanks for the lessons.
June 10th, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in I wish you well § Posted by 100days
Have I ever told you how I fell love with you?
We were still in Baguio then, having lunch at one of the most prestigious “restaurants” in Bonifacio Road. Yes, kay Manang Pat’s. Kung saan walang kisame, at ang sarsa ng adobo at ibang ulam, ay iisa. Pero may libreng sabaw ka.
It’s still very vivid in my mind now. We were sitting on the long table across the counter with me seated closer the exit, and you on my left. You ordered sinigang. Then, this little boy, probably Manang Pat’s apo, came running around our table. He was a friendly, jolly kid. He would make eye contact and give an innocent smile. Apparently, it wasn’t as innocent as we thought. Turns out, he was really looking at your food. You called him and asked if he wanted to have some sinigang. That moment, I was really wishing he’d say no. His mom was even there, and I was expecting her to scold his son for bothering customers. Pero, he came to our table and you fed him using your very own spoon. I can still remember how that spoon looked like. It was wet with soup, half-filled with rice, and had a small stalk of kangkong. Do you know the first thing that came into my mind? All sorts of bacteria that kid could have given you through his saliva. Haha.
June 2nd, 2013 § 0 comments § Posted in Still heartbroken § Posted by Kathy
I am really tired of this situation. I am tired of making excuse for how disrespectful you are to me. You want to take a break and keep playing hot-cold texts with me. What is the point of doing cruel things for the one you said you loved more than anything in your life. I doubt if you ever really loved me or it was just you couldn’t see a good girl pass over you. Why do you have to do this to me? Are you happy at all over there with your friends when you know I have to bury my heart and try to focus on my exam? Are you happy to know that you got everything I never gave to anyone else but you? Did you feel enough yet?
June 1st, 2013 § 2 comments § Posted in It's over, move on, My awesome new life, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by Jessibird
Dear Philosoraptor,
I know you want to get back together. But I will never be in a relationship with you again. It still stings when I think of all the good times we had together, but when I think of the bad times, I burn red hot.
I know you think that we’re not together anymore because I can’t handle conflict. Maybe you’re right. I can’t handle yelling at you one more time to wipe down the counters, take out the trash, contribute to groceries, maybe even (gasp) help with overhead. I got tired of being yelled at for making you an extra sandwich, for buying a fancy vacuum cleaner with my own money, for cleaning the house, for paying bills, for being kind to the cashier, for being in a good mood, for helping your mom do the dishes, for getting your cousin that we were staying with a tin of cookies and a box of chocolates. I didn’t even understand why these actions needed to be defended. I couldn’t handle defending you to my family, who don’t understand why I singlehandedly took care of every chore and bill. The truth was I had no defense – I thought I wasn’t good enough for someone to contribute positively to my life.
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May 31st, 2013 § 1 comment § Posted in Still heartbroken, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by Armin
During our time apart, I’ve thought a lot about our relationship from the beginning to the end. It started out fast. When I found out that I would be around you daily, I was pretty excited because I remembered meeting you two years ago for that small time frame. I thought you really cute. I remember telling one of my friends that same thing right after you left because I found it funny that I had just taught your brother the year before. I didn’t think I would see you again, and then I got a surprise to start this year. I thought this is going to be fun because of how easy you were to get along with. In the back of my mind, I thought maybe we could try something later after you were done with your work. I didn’t expect us to start dating right away.
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