Dear motti,

I still love and I always will love you. I had to push you away not because I didn’t want you or love you. I had to push you away because of my family. My family didn’t want me to marry a guy like you. A man who is sweet, kind, pious, and just perfect. They don’t see the beauty in you. You glow every time I see you. The spark in your eyes just lights up my day. I broke your heart into pieces. The very moment you started crying for me was the day I realized my family and I are not worth of such a man like yourself. You deserve the best of the best. I want nothing but success for you. I hate myself so much. I can’t focus with anything in my life anymore. You think I’m happy and moving on with life but I’m really just stuck in my mind filled with memories of you. No man can ever replace you. Sometimes I wish I can just die and run away from the pain and loneliness. Everyone thinks I’m happy and okay but really inside I’m just drowning of sorrow. Why couldn’t you and I just had a happy ending. I wish I can just run away with you to somewhere beautiful like how we imagined it to be Our escape route. You made me the happiest girl in the world you know that. Everything I told you was a lie, I had no choice but to push you away. I’m so sorry for all the pain I caused you. I hate myself for it. I feel like a failure in every aspect of my life. You called me perfect but I’m nothing but shit. I wasn’t strong enough to fight for you. I wasn’t strong enough to go against my family. Do you blame me ? How can I ? Was my love even true? I will never be worthy of you. May you be showered with nothing but success and happiness. May you find your one and true love who will never hurt you like I did. I hope all your sorrows is showered upon me. I will never love any man like I loved you. I will never respect another man like I respect you. Oh god you’re just perfect. Why did God have to take you away from me. Why is God punishing me ? Why is my family so cruel? Why can’t they just let me live you and be your wife. Why can I bet yours whyyyyy oh why

Forgive me

Your Ladoo