i still think about u & wonder what it would have been like, if we met up now at this point of life, if we had a second chance today…
but we had our moment in time & i thank you for that…i always wonder what if… you are & always will be my first true love…
a smile on my face appears when i think of you.. i still keep the candle lit for you… always deep inside i know it will never be…
years ago, when we knew we had to go our separate ways, we agreed that when the time comes at the age of 30.. we’d find each other & if neither of us wasn’t married, we’d get married no matter what.. we made that pack… it seems that u held on to that.. but i didn’t,,..though at times i wish i did.. i guess it would have been easier to forget you if you had just broken up my heart.. but we left on good terms & unforseen circumstances that was not of our control. we both promise & said one day we will be together again.
although i wouldn’t change a thing on whats happen in my life.. through the grapevine.. i have heard that your not married & is waiting for that special 1, (knowing this tears me up inside if only)… & u hadn’t dated for many years, or have or even considered being in a serious relationship until recently.. i guess u found out that i’m happy.. thats what i wanted you think.. & yes i am happy
i’ve with someone who i love truly & he is wonderful & am a mother to his children who i truly cherish..,,
but guess what …i’m not married either… i haven’t taken the walk down the aisle.. i guess in the the back of my mind i’m still waiting for you…in reality my life has moved on but part of my heart will always be for you, i’ve since locked it up & hidden the key forever… never to be opened again…i haven’t friended you on FB or tried to contact u & yet we have so many mutual friends it would be so easy to be back together again & pick up were we left off… but i keep my distance because i just wanted you to be happy… u deserve that..it has been many years.. but the feelings & the butterflies are still there.. always
i haven’t gotten married…& we are both in our 30’s..& i was nervous when i heard u were back in town & goin to the reunion.. so i left town & avoided the situation.. i didn’t want that chance to run into you… the feelings are to hard to bare..
deep inside i know you were 1.. it may seem unfair but i’ve decided for both of us that its best to let it be.. to keep you as a memory.. thats the way it has to be.. i wish you well & hope one day you find that special someone who truly deserves your love.. whoever she maybe, that someone special who i wish at times could’ve been me … xx