It’s only been a month, but feels like its been a year. Only 30 days have gone by but I honestly feel emotionally destroyed and drained of the same caliber of one whole year. When will these sleepless nights and depression fits stop. When will the small dreams o have about you dissipate when will I stop seeing your smile burned into my memory forever making my heart yearn for your loving again. I wish I could have everything we had right back and I would give anything in the world just to head your laughter one more time. Just to have your lips pressed against mine causing the sparks that I will forever envy and be on the wild search for that I know I will never be able to achieve again. You were my first legitimate love and from day one told you that you were my dream girl. Where does someone go from being in the heavens and happy, to in the dirts with sleepless nights and depression filled thoughts everyday . Its only getting harder. I will always love you Hannah .