Falling in love with you was one of the hardest, but most cherished moments in my life, Will. I first fell in love with you on my 18th birthday, when we first kissed outside a local town nightclub. After a load of trouble, which i don’t really want to go on about, we decided that we would give this whole relationship thing a go. After explaining to me about your ex, and what she did to you, all i wanted to do was love you and look after you, and treat you the way you deserved. From April onward, we acted natural around each other, and we would always jokingly say ‘i fucking hate you’ because we were both too scared to say the L-Bomb. On March the 6th, a Friday night, you were too scared to ask me out (which i found absolutely adorable, and i distinctly remember you saying over loud music in the same nightclub we met, and first kissed at, ‘can we switch roles. i don’t want to ask you because i’m nervous.’ Without hesitation, my heart exploded and i asked you if we could be together, and you said ‘yes, so can we stop saying i fucking hate you, and say i love you instead now?’ and that was the first time i had told you i loved you outloud. From there onwards, i knew this was going to be the best thing that had ever happened to me so far. You gave me everything i had ever wished for, and without concluding now, i’d just like to say thankyou for that. Everyday up until now, i have loved you with every last piece that i can give. You treated me like an absolute princess, and we have had so many amazing memories together, including going to Torquay for the day, spending days led in bed together, and generally just enjoying eachothers company. I know that the last few weeks of our relationship werent exactly perfect, i slowly tolerated your jokes less and less and took them more personally and for that im sorry, because i know now that you never meant them. One thing i do have to say is that i’m not sorry for some of our petty little arguments. As much as i hate to say it, sometimes you do have to be wrong, and this is one of your flaws. Its okay to admit you’re wrong, and apologise, and this seemed to be something that was hard for you to do. It seemed like i was always the on running back to you because i loved you so much, and one small argument would have continued unless i had apologised otherwise. Despite this, and your small flaws, I have, and still do love you with all of my heart. The way you broke up with me wasnt right, and it was extremely hard on me, but i understand. I understand that its hard to look someone in the face and tell them that you love them, but youre unhappy. The (almost) six months that we shared together were amazing, and whether or not it was the daunting fact that things were moving rapidly, and that we had plans to move out together etc, I just want you to know that i care about you. We’re not talking now, and i know its only been a week, and whether or not we talk again i dont know. I love you Will, and i will always have a very special place in your heart for you.
Becca.