It’s only been a few months since I screwed up what I thought was the best thing going in my life. The part that hurts the most is I know I still love you and want only you. We were together for almost five years but when my grandma got sick I was stressed so I thought taking a break would be a good thing. I cried every night wishing you were here and I almost called you on a daily basis. And then you got a new “girlfriend” and had your best friend text me acting like her saying all kinds of terrible things. I sat in the bathroom at school and cried for a solid 20 minutes. That’s when I decided I could no longer love you because you hurt me so bad I felt like there was no reason to breath. Then you texted me that evening telling me you were sorry and that you still loved me. And I told you I don’t love you but I do.