It has been years in fact its been almost four, I’ve moved on, so have you. Thinking about that doesn’t make it easier, it doesn’t make what you did easier for me. I don’t blame you nor will I ever blame you for what you did, What i do blame you for is the years of bad relationships that came after ours, The years of heartbreak, The late night calls to my best friend while i was in tears, the nights i couldn’t sleep because i couldn’t stop crying, The years of realizing we we’re into deep to young, But through all that not a day goes by where i don’t think about all the amazing memories we had and all the things you did teach me. You taught me that love can be unconditional, You also taught me to never settle for less than i deserve, to live in the moment, to be myself and to always love myself. I’ve moved on it took years to find the right one but i did it. I want to say i’m sorry for not loving you the way i should have, for not giving you enough credit for what you we’re doing for me, i’m so for being selfish and not understanding you need as much love as me, that a relationship works both ways. I wish i would have told you what you meant to me, i wish i would have told you how much i love you, i wish i would have showed you how much i care, I wish i would have told you everything that has been going through my head for years, but i didn’t i couldn’t,
I’m so happy you moved on that you didn’t let our bad mistakes set you back, I am so happy for you, I hope and pray that she realizes what she has, I hope she tells you everyday that she loves you that she cares and appreciates you, that she holds you like shes never going to see you again Because god knows if i had the chance to do it over i would.
You’ll always be the one who got away from me…
love,
Your first love…