Dear J,

I am waiting for the day that I hear your name and it doesn’t bring up any emotion. Right now the emotions are overwhelming. It consists of mostly sadness but there is also feelings of anger, embarrassment, and resentment to myself.

I always considered myself strong but I never fully understood the power love has on ones life and even though I know for the long run it was the best decision, a month later I still feel like staying in bed all day.

What I don’t understand is how after three years you could find someone in less than a month. I am so jealous of her because I know she is perfect for you. I am angry cause while I still feel so much pain you get the excitement of a new and perfect love. Your family loves her just like they loved me back in the day, and you look at her like you used to me.

Please don’t text me anymore and act like you care about my wellbeing, it’s perfectly clear that you don’t.

It has occurred to me when we cut ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other.

I’m sure I’ll have to talk to you again, but I hope not for a very long time.

And I’ll leave you with one final thought, it’s funny how best freinds for years become strangers in a couple weeks .

I’m glad you are happy.

Love,
The person who got left behind