Well, I keep trying to think of what I should say to you, but I can never think of anything good enough. So many things I see everyday remind me of you, and idk how to get rid of your memory. I sit in my room everyday in silence thinking about you, for what reason idk but I do know one thing, that I loved you.
The first time since we broke up I right about you right before I went to sleep and I couldn’t help but break out in tears. I don’t know why God doesn’t put us with the people we love the most, but I do know he has a reason. That is the reason I am following and the reason I will not take you back. You have big things ahead of you and that needs to be your main focus, forget about me forget about us, even though that’s the last thing I want it to do but just do it we will be better off that way. I can never go through life if I keep thinking about you every day, I could never fully move on. I have a guy who wants to love who I can’t fully love back because you still have that piece of me that he needs. I want to give it to him and I am asking for it back. I am not going to look back on a guy who one day loves me forever and the next not so much. I don’t understand why you couldn’t see that it was going to work out for us it really was but then all hell broke loose and you gave up and called a break. I don’t know why I can’t let this go and forgive you but I have never loved someone so much who has broken my trust so badly that I can’t forgive them, maybe I can’t forgive you now but I will Learn to because God wants me to forgive all wrongs. This is only partial things that I want to say to you buts it’s all I have to say for now. I hope one day this gets back to you and you will know who you are.