Steve,

When you left I was broken. I cried going to work, at work, comin home and at home. I didn’t change my sheet for 3 months. I wanted to kill myself. I went to a shrink and she helped some. Two and a half years on, you married her.

I wanted to be the one you married.

Its Christmas day and I am crying. I think of how happy you must be. I want to be the one you wake up to. Hold at night, laugh with and come home too.

I am still broken. I don’t think I will ever be able to trust anyone again. This hurt you gave me has changed me and is now a part of me. I am so lonely and afraid.
I am still in love with you.

Js