Dear Michael,
When I first met you I thought you were amazing I knew I wouldn’t stand a chance with the new guy in class. Luckily for me I got to be apart of your friends group even if they were all crappy friends.
The first few months I was an excited 15 year old being noticed by the cutest guy from a new school we started texting then you were my first. After about a month I started really liking you then you ended up going away for months.
Three months before my 16th birthday I was doing fine without you realized I could be with someone better then you came back into my life you made me Fall in love with you. The only bad part was I don’t thank no you fell for me like I had fallen for you. You kept me a secret everyone knew about us but you denied me. Denied everything about us. Made me look stupid to our friends. Then to make it worse two weeks before my birthday you told me you loved me then Ran away and didn’t speak to me for two whole months. When you did you were rude didn’t tell me you loved me any more.
It was two months before my 17th birthday when you came back again made me fall again. I lost my job because I was so convinced we were going to work out for real that time but nope. You let me down again this time You chose jail and drugs over me. You came back to me like you loved me but you love for drugs were stronger. You left me worried every night for you wondering if you were okay. Wondering if you were sleeping on the streets or if you have eaten. I worried for you for months. I tried everything to be there for you. Some how I lost you. You were bad you faught with me you pushed me around cussed me out. You were paranoid accused me of cheating and sleeping with your best friend.
At that moment I told my self I was done that I wasn’t going back to you. That I was no longer going to keep being someone you can screw over again. I broke up with you that following April.
My heart was so hurt. You ended up spiraling out and going back to jail. We were done for good. I tried moving on. I turned 18 moved away and was doing good. Then I got that good job back home dropped everything somehow tiu seen me and we were friends then fell back into the same habit. Dated again we did so well no fights nothing. Got back together in July four months before becoming 19. Everything was alright until one day I just flipped I was so mad and angry that I broke up with you in October. I was such an angry person I didn’t know what was wrong but it was because I was pregnant two months along. When I told you , you said it wasn’t yours , you made me feel so hurt and lonely. I was under so much stress I lost the baby. Where were you no where to be found. Back on drugs. I wish I could have took the easy way out like you. I wish I could just go off and smoke dope and just forget my problems and live off my friends but I can’t. I’m responsible unlike you I’m trying to be a grown adult. I knew that once we lost the baby there was no hope for us ever again. Something like that can make someone or break someone and it completely broke me. I was suicidal. We tried again for another few months but thelove I felt for you was gone. You called me names treated me badly then cheated on me with my friend. That was it I had it. It’s been ten months we e been broken up I miss you like crazy but all the shit you put me through. I’m done. Truly done I can’t take this with you anymore six years of putting up with you and the stress I’m sorry I can’t I love you but I’m not the same girl that fell in love with you when I was 15. Goodbye Michael Angelo it was a good few years I hope you find someone great and hope you have the family you deserve. I can’t give you what you want but maybe someone else can.
With love ,
Jay