A lot of people already told me that they’ve felt this feeling wherein their heart would feel heavy and painful, like a heartburn, and you keep repeating to yourself that you just want to forget, even just for a moment. I have always found people who told me that dramatic, how is it possible for your heart to heavy for a high school ex lover? And with you I’ve experienced it. With you, I’ve been hurt a lot yet I still continued loving you unconditionally even when I knew you didn’t feel the same anymore. With you, I’ve felt this ‘heartburn’ my ex lovers described that I’ve always found dramatic. Whenever I think of you with someone, I would feel it, my heart would feel heavy and so would my shoulders like never before. I would always repeat to myself;

I just want to forget
I just want to forget
Lord please help me forget
Lord please help me forget
I don’t want to feel anymore
I don’t want to feel anymore
I want to forget her
I want to forget her and be happy

and It would never happen but now that I’ve accepted that I’ve lost you, now that I’ve accepted the truth, now that I’ve accepted that you’re happier without me. I’ve accepted, that I’ve let you go. I’ve accepted that you let me go.

I don’t feel that feeling anymore, when I think of you with someone else, my heart doesn’t feel heavy anymore. I feel nothing when I think of you with her. And I now realize how it feels when you see me, because we are now ex lovers.

Like how you’ve always treated me,

an ex lover.

pmdfs.