We broke up for the last and final time over a year ago. 3 days after Valentine’s 2016, our 3rd Valentine’s Day together. I came up with this huge elaborate way to surprise you and to pop the question. We had a good run as you said after it ended. At the time that felt like knifes in my back when I heard that, but now I have to agree. We weren’t ment to get married, no family was in our future as much as I think we both had hoped at the time. You were my first real love, high school sweet heart, I’d always hoped we’d be that couple people would tell us they knew we would get married. But it wasn’t in the cards for us as you will being saying your vows to someone else this month. For months after we ended and you asked me to not to speak to you again I was so angry. How was I supposed to live without talking to my best friend, the person I had spoke to almost every day for the last 2 years to just no communication. The first 2 or 3 months, I lived. Going through my day to day with college and work because it helped keep me sane. But then at I find out your already with someone new. I wanted to call you, text you, run the half mile stretch of road that separated us and find out how you could move on so fast. But I didn’t, I screamed and cried my eyes out every night on my.hour drive home trying to figure out how I could get you back. That he would break your heart and you would call me crying and I could come rescue you. And now flash foward a year; to the middle of April, I find out your wedding is this next month. And for a split second I feel sadness, because a small part of me had been hoping it wouldn’t work out still. But I’m also happy though; you have your happy ending, your Prince Charming. And I’m excited for you even though I’m jealous. I want to text you and tell you congratulations but I know I shouldn’t because of how badly the last time I texted you went, so I just smile and put my phone back in my pocket and get back to work. Now back today and this last weekend. Tornados tore up our little town and hit in our neighborhood. My first concern in my mind is my family and then its You. I hold my breath and text you asking if your okay, never really expecting a reply I get one, short and sweet “we’re all fine” I relax and I’m happy. I’ll never know if you still care or if you ever knew I bought a engagement and thats fine. The ring is long gone just like your feelings for me are. As for all the sorrow, hatred, anger I had for the longest time I think I have finally found peace with you. Knowing your happy and taken care of now and forever. Now I will continue to pray for you two, for a long and happy marriage. Love you Sitty