Dear Sean,
Its been over 2 years since we met each other. Like what i often said it wasnt a romantic way. Here i am tonight writing you letter which is obviously you wont probably read. The first time i met you, i dont think you really that cute.. and your red hockey jersey stinks. ^__^, then days past and i found myself looking at your photos on fb.. laughing at some old post you did and my heart miss you everyday. Yes i still keep the first movie ticket we’ve watch. I told to myself someday when we get married i will put that ticket on our wedding photo to display so our children will see it. hahahaha that was so stupid of me. You always complain about your job there in Japan but whenever i check your fb theres a new girl who works in a bar and liked your post . Well we all know worst is abby you upload a photo’s of her. I cried. But i forgive you. You never care about my feelings. You keep on hurting me. I admit i chat with other, trying to ease the loneliness im feeling, but he wasnt you, days past you are still the same, ignoring me complaining about your work going out on different bars, and me getting upset. Remember last year after almost a year we’ve seen each other again,.. i was shaking inside i feel so cold during that time specially when i saw your back, i want to turn away, or hide, its just less than 5 mins. i said i cant stay i still have work for tomorrow, God knows how much i miss you. But i pity myself. I am not a sex object. That you can fuck whenever you want to and leave as you please. So i just gave you a present. I know how much you like starwars. so i searched for the shop who makes personalize magic mug. I said to my self well you can buy that thing if you want to so i tried to make a bracelet the same design anakin gave to padme. i worked for weeks for that bracelet. i curved it out of bones (not human but something hard like a tooth) wasnt from japor snippet. anyway i didnt give it,.. when i showed you the photo you seems like not interested. so i just keep it in my closet along with the movie ticket and another starwars magic mug because i didnt like the design of that one. Days past and months gone you are still the same person. I remember you called me desperate. and when i ask for flowers you said does dead flowers counts. I feel so miserable. I loved you but you killing me. I hope if ever you read this letter i hope you understand why i gave up. Its been 2 years. I wish you happiness in the future. And i hope you found someone who will love you more than i can do. I do wants to be happy as well.
May the force be with you..