Dear k,
I cant believe its over. What happened to all those times you told me that you’d never leave me? That you’d never let me leave you. To All all those times you held me and said you’d never let go? What happened to your face that once lit up every time you saw me? Why does it choose to look away now? What happened to those “I love you boo”s? And those nights we spent texting each other till 5am even though we knew we had to be up by 6. What happened to the times we had long walks together and you forced me to held your hand so the whole world knew i was yours? What happened to telling the whole world that you had the best girl in the world? What happened to the times you stopped kissing me just to tell me how beautiful i looked? What about thoses nap dates we had when we’d just cuddle our problems away? What about the time i was so sick i looked dead but you still told me i looked like a queen? The times you jokes with my family like you were already part of it. Don’t you miss that? Don’t you miss any of that? When we broke up for no clear reason, just you saying that it was turning toxic for the both of us, didnt it hurt? When you didnt even have the courage to break up in person? How was it toxic for you when i was the one crying every single day because you refused to treat me well after a point? When the last two weeks we were together was hell for me and you didnt even care. How did you just stop caring so easily after everything we’d been through? When you texted me saying that we weren’t working out and that the relationship was turning toxic i couldnt breathe. All i could say is that we should break up because i was so mad at you because you hadnt met or texted me properly in two weeks. I expected a ‘no boo, i love you. Im sorry’ or ateast something like ‘i couldnt be without you’ beacause thats what you had promised. You promised me that youd never let me leave and now here you were pushing me away. So far away that i couldnt even see you anymore. All i wanted to do was to scream and say that i love you soo much. And that i won’t be able to live without you but i couldn’t say that because it was obvious that you didnt feel the same. After everything, YOU CHANGED YOUR MIND. Now i see you, not even a month after we broke up, with another girl. Treating her wayyyyyy better than you ever treated me. Showing her off more than you ever did for me. Just loving her more than you ever did for me. But she’ll never be me. She’ll never be friends with your friends because they still talk to me and love me. They hang out with me more than they do with you. They miss me more than you do. They don’t like her either and they know i was the one. The one you lost. Now i see you with her and my heart breaks into more than a million pieces and its going to take me years to pick all of them up. All i have left to say is that; i miss you. I love you. Come back to me. I cant do this anymore.