I love you, but I hate you

I love you, but I hate you

I love you, but I hate you

LTME-postHi, I know you’ll never read this but I hope you see it one day and realize that it came from me.

I was committed to you, I was ready and excited for a future with you, I was excited for all of the plans we had and I was excited to see you every single time. My love never died for you, although my feelings took longer to develop for you than yours did for me, I still knew you were right for me but I thought that you felt the same, almost convinced that you felt the same considering how much you tried to involve me in your family. I got butterflies every time I thought of you and there wasn’t a second that passed in my day where you weren’t involved in them. You shattered my heart and you never told me the reason why you ended our relationship – I thought we had something special. Now I’m left wondering, every single day; what happened? what went wrong? was it me? did I do something wrong? You never told me anything.. you just left me and vanished. I did nothing to deserve that, all I ever wanted to do was make you happy like you made me happy.
No matter what or how bad your reason was, I would have accepted it and stayed civil with you and if you still wanted to move on, I would have also accepted that – I just needed a reason.
I hope that you are well and I hope that you find happiness. I will miss every moment we spent together, I just feel bitter for what you did and how you did it.
I’ll be here if you ever decide to reach out to me again. I miss you.

7 Comments

  1. Raindrops 7 months ago

    Can I please just ask what your initials are?

    • Anon 6 months ago

      Sorry for the late reply. Initials are cw

  2. InnocentBeauty 6 months ago

  3. Anon 6 months ago

    I know this post isn’t for me but I wanted to comment. I’ve read at least a hundred of these posts, never commented before, but this one seemed to call to me in a way no others have. Why do I read these? Maybe it’s because I want to find comfort knowing lots of people feel hurt like I do but mostly I guess it’s because I have hope that someone I once deeply cared about would write. I imagine that it would sound something like yours although it would be highly uncharacteristic of them to post on the Internet. I’d prefer that they’d just reach out to me if it ever crossed their mind because my expectation is they long forgot about me and there is too much risk in what their reaction would be if I did reach out. I left them, similar to your story, with little explaination. It wasn’t fair to either of us what I did and I regret it every day. I made it seem intentional but it really wasn’t. I felt stuck and confused and I didn’t have anyone to turn to for advise. The best part about Anon comments is I can give unwanted advise…Your subject line is an oxymoron. So which is it – Love or Hate? Maybe you should just take a chance and reach out to them and find out.

    • treasure chest 5 months ago

      Maybe you should take your own advice. Usually the advice we have for others is a projection of what we should be telling ourselves… And I would bet that they haven’t forgotten about you. When we’re feeling something deep down within our core, the feeling, most oftentimes, is mutual.

  4. Meow 6 months ago

    K?

  5. Bismarck 6 months ago

    That’s awesome and meaningful to want a question answer no matter what type of time or submissions you have.

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