I still don’t understand

I still don’t understand

I still don’t understand

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I will never understand why you did it like that, no explanations, no reasons, no nothing…. All I did was give you my all, my heart was yours.

I really dont understand, I never had closure, its been almost 5 months since you broke up with me and Im still hurting, every time I think about you my heart still hurts, every time I remember our time together my heart breaks a little. I really loved you.

You were my happiness.

People called me stupid so many times bc of you, I couldnt stop crying for days, you made those days miserable, you never reached out to me… Ever, you never asked how I was doing, you never cared not even a little, you made feel like I was nothing.

I thought you were different, I thought because you know what a heartbreak feels you wouldnt hurt me, I thought you would be at least a little considerate to me because you know how that pains feels like, I never thought you would hurt me like this, specially after everything, I was there for you unconditionally when you needed me.

I wouldnt eat, I wouldnt sleep, I cried myself to sleep for days, trying to understand what did I do to deserve that.

Im not the same person anymore because of you, and the worst thing of all … I cant even hate you, I don’t, I still care for you and I hope the best for you.

1 Comment

  1. Sunshine 4 weeks ago

    Hi,

    I think we are completely in the same boat right now. I have been ghosted by the same man twice. And believe me I am still hurting, I still think about what I did wrong, what went wrong, and what’s wrong with me. It’s only been a month, but I am trying everyday. I try to get up, go to work, not thinking about him and the pain I am going through. I am learning everyday and will continue learning. Maybe the best thing you can do is to stop blaming yourself and asking WHY. Take a step back and look at the bigger picture, you’re okay. And whatever happens, know that you survive this and you are stronger than this. Whatever he has done, it reflects on him. Know that you are enough and if you can give this much love to a wrong person, how much more can you give to the right person? you got this. <3

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