I never really thought I’d have to be in this situation ever but who does right? I don’t understand how it’s possible for someone to be so wrong yet so right. I’ve always wondered why we only want things that are bad for us. Ours was a toxic relationship, I have realized that. You could have saved my heart from breaking into a million pieces by saying that you wanna end it and not just ghost me for 2 months and make ME break up with you. Who in their right mind could be so cruel to do that? It was hard. I woke up crying and I cried myself to sleep every night. Just wondering where did I go wrong? I was trying to be a better person and encouraging you to do the same. But as they say every dark cloud has a silver lining… You taught me some real lessons… It’s because of you that I feel so confident about myself and I now respect myself to know what I deserve. I hope God blesses you and some sense gets knocked into your stupid head. I hate you for putting me through everything you did. I was a fool to trust you and I was blind the whole time… I’m sorry I was so emotionally dependant on you though… I didn’t know anyone here and you became my bubble of comfort which just suddenly shattered and I fell, hitting hard on the ground to the face of reality. I hope you realize one day what you lost and how you’re never going to find someone who loves you this much again. I miss you, but I know better than just that now. I wouldn’t say you were a mistake and I don’t know if I would be happier if I didn’t meet you at all… But it’s always those little things that break me… Like dancing in the kitchen, sleeping on calls, teasing each other and what not.
Thank you for making me stronger. It’s gonna take time to get used to a life without you but I know I’ll make it through. I know I can. Because I deserve better. I deserve someone who will only leave me once I’ve stopped breathing. Someone who appreciates me for who I am and motivates me to do better. I know I’ll find him. I know he’s out there. Thank you for directing me towards the life I want.