Nothing feels right any more

Nothing feels right any more

Nothing feels right any more

I don’t know where to start . It’s so so hard moving forward without you when I planned all my future with you. The day you asked me to abort the little life living inside me for your ex girlfriend , it felt like you shot me in the heart. How I wish I’d realized sooner that you weren’t my knight But merely the villain who killed a part of me. How I wished you knew how much pain I felt when you asked me to take those pills . How I wish you’d know the pain of losing a child. How I wish my baby and I didn’t have to go through this heartbreaking  journey which was supposedly supposed to be the most beautiful journey in a women’s life. I don’t think that you as a father , you as a man , you as a human being had the rights to decide if you wanted to take away a life of a little being or keep it just because of your unstable heart. 
Do you have any idea how painful it is to sleep at night and to wake up with a heavy broken heart. When nothing feels right anymore .
But don’t you worry I won’t ask you or beg you to stay with me because I don’t want my child to have a father who didn’t even want him/ her . A father who left them.
I am going to raise this child alone . I am going to raise my baby to become the most responsible human being who care for others unlike their father. 
I am going to give my child the best of best so that they won’t feel the need of their father Or let alone even feel his absence.
I will always keep this lesson in my heart and I hope that no other girls will have to go through what I went through especially when your a teen.

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