Hey Sandeep,
You seem to think we have the opportunity to be okay again, we do not. You say a good game but I have your measurements.

You might be handsome and well hung but the way you treated me was anything but perfect. You cheated on me with a woman twice my age, stole over 100,000 dollars from me, verbally and physically abused me while I paid all the bills. You never told me you had a son until I found out and you killed our unborn children by abusing me in the end. You even refused to come to the hospital when I miscarried and almost lost my own life due to haemorrhaging. No apology is ever going to be enough for the loss of their lives. Ever.

I have nothing in my heart for you anymore because you broke my trust, my mind, and my heart. I am better now, even though you left me with all your bills and took all my money. There is no hope for you and I. I have learned too much and I am happy now.  I still pay those bills because you were not responsible enough to pay them on your own.  You make excuses that none of the events are your fault, that I am the crazy one who asked too much, but I was nothing more than a cash cow you used and called a white whore, dirty cunt, a bitch, a lazy good for nothing and a stinky pussy. You hurt me and you still do. I never degraded you and funded your double life and your dreams. I would have given you the world, but you never even fed me a meal as I was starving myself so I could afford your luxuries like a new Mercedes, insurance and so much more. You used me and I will never forgive you. I now know the right way to be treated. You had it all and you lost it.

You should have realized I would find out and get the courage to leave, but the babies! How could you?  They were innocent and part of you. You could have hit me and called me names all day, but don’t hurt them. Instead you did, you decided you didn’t want them and it did not matter what I wanted. Why do you think I would forgive you and be friends after that. Why do you think I would pick up the phone?  It is not your right to be a murderer, a thief, a liar and a cheater just because you can. I might have not been good enough for you as you so often said. However they did not deserve death simply for having the audacity to exist. They knew nothing of your promises to me, to your I love yous that you faked. They knew nothing of your or my folly. Yet you killed them and were willing to have me die alone attempting to save them. So yes it is over.

The debt and the bills keep coming in but you know what that is a small price to pay for my life, my happiness, and to no longer be in your life. You deserve so much punishment for your actions, words, and more. I will not be the one to unleash it. However, I hope on high heaven one day you will pay in heaven for what you did and that you will see their innocent faces as God intended and have to answer the hard questions to the Almighty as they look to you for an answer that you can not give.  Karma they say is a bitch. I hope they save it all for your afterlife.