Dear Manon,

I know it’s been a year and I’m still longing for you. Your voice, your giggles and laugh, your sweet thoughts, your complains and your care. I’m sorry I blocked you in all of your social medias. I just can’t stand seeing your face and make me mad seeing you moved on easily. I know you hated me so much. I saw your video the one on tiktok. Well I was waiting for you to do that challenge and I’m just shocked that I did not expect to see it on IG that I’m following. You are good and still pretty. I can’t stop playing it. I’m still smiling as if the first time I fall for you. But you know what’s the sad part ? The pain.. its back! The memories of you kept flashing back. Yes I have to admit I’m still in pain. A lot of unanswered questions that you left on me and I’m looking for an answers. While typing this I’m crying… We we’re happy! We had plans right? but when I found out you cheated.. I was devastated. I can’t get up every morning to go to my class. I failed my subjects. And I blamed myself over and over again. Why????!! Why can’t I accept everything until now? Whyyy do I still love you after what you did?? Whyy am I the only one suffering?? Will you care to explain? Despite of these questions running circles in my head everyday I am trying to move forward. I pray that you will have a good life. I wish you nothing but the best. And I guess you’re a nurse now. I’m happy for you.  No matter what happens you’ll always be here.. in my heart. 

Always,
C