Dear JCR…..I have hidden nothing from you, But I never told you that I loved you.  And, Because of certain circumstances, perhaps I never will. I must not interfere with your life…..I have fought, and fought, and FOUGHT with myself over telling you.  Over loving you.  I can fight no longer..I am exhausted..I have put the matter into God’s hands…..I have prayed for patience while the matter is worked out.   In spite of the pain connected with all this, I am still grateful for the chance to have  known you… You are an outstanding man… One of the best I have ever known.In my eyes, you are pure gold, Diamonds…..