N: this might be the 100th letter I’ll write to you. I know i won’t give u this one either. U know? U could’ve told me how you felt from the beginning instead of leading me on in a path of lies. Don’t say u love me if u clearly don’t. Don’t say u want me cause i know it isn’t true and maybe all of that was really fun to you, but it broke me.

Seeing how i was giving you everything i had and how u didn’t care. How you showed interest for 3 days and then ignore me for a week and how instead of telling me the truth you were just giving your attention to other people. Now looking at it from away i know it was wrong but i just loved you so much. I felt like you understood me more than anyone. You made me feel special and i wish i could say that i’ve moved on but i haven’t. I’m still waiting for the day your message saying i’m sorry let’s make this right pops out in my screen. But deep down i know it won’t. Even now that i know that i still love you. I wish i could hate you for all the pain you’ve let me go through for 3 years but i don’t cause i still look at you and see this amazing and beautiful person. I love u.