Dear Oscar, 

I wish you would’ve tried, just how you did that time when you got me my first gift. After that I lost you somewhere down the road, it hurt me. How easily you were able to walk away, when I called it off, you just hung up afterwards. While I cried on the phone pouring my heart out to you through a letter. I couldn’t even get past half of the first sentence, from all the sobbing. I told you recently when we hung out that I wish I could hate you, I really do wish I could.

During the relationship, you frequently talked about other girls, whether it was them coming up to you, or past ones. I always listened and told you it was okay, at one point I told you I didn’t appreciate it. You never stopped though, you continued. This second and final chance I gave you was wasted, I asked you if you were really going to try if not leave me alone. You told me you would try, you really didn’t. I love you, I would tell you a million times.

I see you and every time you get near me, I act like I’m fine but I rather be hugging you. I know I deserve more, I want more, I’m going to get more; GOD will give me more. I wish you could’ve been that for me, it was so simple. I’m going to let go, I don’t want to but I need to. Fell in love with you in 8th grade when I tried to stay away from you because every girl was head over heels for you. Then I was one of those dumbass’ but I got lucky, we became best friends. We met again and you made me fall for you, you told me you loved me first, just to throw it away. I won’t forgive you for that right now but later on I will. I hope you change soon before I’m gone, apart of me will always want you. I hope you go hard for the next girl.

Love always Brianna