I love you, and I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the way our relationship had gone down, I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you. Perhaps it was the right person, but the wrong time. More so like you said “The right person, at the right time however now it is time for the the next right person”. The year 2020 has been a hell of a year, and I’m thankful for going through this year with you at my side. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the girlfriend that you needed me to be, I’m sorry for being so negative and not having more self confidence. I’m sorry for arguing over the little things, I’m sorry for giving my all yet not seeming to give enough. I tried my best to love and support you, boost your confidence, I think I boosted your ego too much. When you told me you wanted an open relationship, I agreed to it…though deep down I didn’t want too. Then you had told me you asked out a girl at work that I hated and work directly with. Against my wishes you still pursued her, you said it was “something that you felt you needed to do”. To make things worse I realized you didn’t want an open relationship to date other woman because you felt you were missing out. You wanted an open relationship because you had fallen for this girl, while we were dating. The thought still kills me, though you two are still just friends now as you say.
A part of me is still scared that one day you two will end up dating, and that will mean I lose you forever. Yet I have to thank you, even after being broken up for a month, you still stand by my side and love me and show me I am still worthy of being loved. Thank you for still being there to pick me up when I’m down. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, for being the person I can run to when things are bad. Thank you for the endless hugs, and forehead kisses that you still give me. Thank you for showing me that I am capable of being loved, and showing me the amazing person that I am, and continue to be. Though our relationship has ended, and I am still in love with you, what I am grateful for the most is our amazing friendship that has blossomed. Thank you.