Hey,
I really miss you, and I keep thinking about you or how you are.  We didn’t leave things on good terms, which I don’t even know if that could have been a possibility. You meant so much to me, as my first love, as my best friend, and I could never imagine that one day I would be without you.  Are you happy right now ?  Does the person you are with give you everything you need ?  Even though I don’t think you deserve it after everything you did to me.  After what you did to us, the only good thing you did was block me. This isn’t even being petty because I understand I was wrong in a lot of ways, but I never played with your emotions.  I’ll own up to my wrongs, even if you weren’t any better and use it to justify what you did.  Because I meant it when I said I love you, I want to spend my life with you, and that will probably never change. You didn’t have to say those things back if you didn’t feel the same.  You didn’t have to call after we broke up and beg to speak to me.  I really wish if you did all that, that you just stuck it out with me. Now you have a kid and there is no going back.  It hurts so much to know that something that meant so much for so long didn’t matter to you. That you could have left me alone but instead I’m going through this pain all over again. If you had a pregnant GF then why call me ? Why say you would give us a chance ? Why say you love me ? It really made me feel lower than dirt, and I questioned whether there was a point to my life or if I should just end it. Things are finally better in this crazy time, I feel like I can breathe. Sometimes I forget you and in those brief moments I feel like myself again.  Even though you’re the man I love right now, and the person I want my infinity with, I’m going to try to move on.  There’s this guy who is really amazing, he said he’ll wait because he really loves me.  He says and does things like no one else ever has; and he never makes me feel ashamed.  So I’m going to give it a shot because even if I love you now I’m hoping one day that will change.  One day I hope I don’t think about you this way, I just wanted to tell you without telling you.  Because it doesn’t feel right to move on without letting you know, even if you did that to me. Eu gosto muito de ti, con todo mi corazon, adios para siempre. <3