Hey J-P (Ernie) 
You will probably never find this. I messed up. You are it for me. I miss your touch and your amazing mind. I miss your voice. I think about you still. I loved you and I messed everything up by leaving. I’m still so in love with you and I don’t know if I can fix this. I’ve tried to move on but it’s always going to be you. Everything reminds me of you and how we used to be. I wanted to do life with you then and I still do now. 
I still love you…