JK, what can I say? 

It’s been 2 years and I’m still grappling with the absolute hell you put me through. I’m in a new relationship, and for the most part I’m happy. But you, your actions and all the trauma you caused me live in my mind day in and day out. You are the reason why I question ever answer anyone gives me, you are the reason I feel like every argument with my partner must turn hysterical and violent. You have caused me so much pain, even now. And I hate you for that. I wish I could tell you to your face, just how much I despise you and your existence. I live in a constant level of fear since you. Every no caller ID, every public place I go, every Instagram message from a fake account, I can feel you, lurking. It makes me sick. 

Though, you’re not completely to blame. There were assholes before you that each took a piece of me. That each stole some level of my sanity and trust. Now, I have a genuine angel by my side and he is the one that cops the brunt of it. It’s not fair, to anyone. I’ve tried to move on, I’ve tried to regain myself, but it’s impossible. I could of course, never admit this to you. Never let you know how much of a mess you have made me. Never let you know you won. I hate you. I hope someone one day stops you from being the devil incarnate that you are. 

Goodbye.