idek where to start. i can’t help but think about you every now and then, and i always end up missing you and being sad that i don’t have you in my life anymore. you were so so important to me, the center, the happiness, and the main part of my life. i loved you. and i still do. but i can’t talk to you, i can’t express my love for you, or the fact that i miss you and wish you were in my life.

you just meant so so much to me. i still have no idea how i got attached to you so quickly, i mean honestly maybe it was because of the challenge of us spending time together, because it was hard for us to even literally talk. to have time together, to have long, meaningful conversations.

i remember always saying to my friends and anyone who was asking me for advice – that communication, commitment are so so important. they are and still are the key factors of a happy, healthy relationship. i mean maybe now that i think about it, i was too focused on trying to make us good? like a relationship that other people would want to be in? i mean obviously we had our fights. we had reasons why we fought, and a lot of them were definitely because of miscommunication or the fact that one of us was overthinking. we both would always argue with each other on who loved who most. and you would always usually win by just saying “i love you most.”