Somehow it’s easier to write on paper than say it to your face, although that doesn’t seem fair on you. But how was I meant to tell you my head was happy but my heart was not? I love you but I don’t know how to love you? Once before you my heart was broken and it never recovered, you came and pieced it back together. However the heartache never left, my heart still hurts from when it was broken before. Yet I’m so in love with you. You showed me what love really is, you showed me that love is not painful and comes easy but I couldn’t do the same for you. I made love hard for you and for that I’ll never forgive myself. I wish we could be together but right now I just can’t do it and i don’t want you to wait for me to love you properly. You pieced my heart back together, but I need to provide the glue to keep it fixed in place – and it’s something I just have to do on my own else I’m afraid my heart will never be capable of giving love again.
It’s easier to say in a letter than it is in words.